Hurray for DBlog Week! Here's today's prompt:
Often our health care team only sees us for about 15 minutes several times a year, and they might not have a sense of what our lives are really like. Today, let’s pretend our medical team is reading our blogs. What do you wish they could see about your and/or your loved one's daily life with diabetes? On the other hand, what do you hope they don't see?
This topic is especially interesting to me, considering that I am a Pediatric Endocrinologist in training and that my Endocrinologist also happens to have Type 1. What are the odds?
That fact that we are both in medicine and both have the disease we treat makes for a peculiar clinic visit. On one hand, it's great because he completely understands the struggle. Not just what it is like to live with Type 1, but what it is like to live with the disease while juggling an insane medical training schedule. I enjoy discussing the differences between how my office runs compared to his, and the colleagues we have in common. When it comes to my diabetes, he talks to me professionally in terminology that is not watered down. I appreciate that.
With other providers, I worried deeply that I would be judged for numbers and A1C's that would not meet the expectation one would have for a physician with diabetes. With him, I can be completely honest about how I know that carb-heavy meals screw up by numbers but that I choose to eat them anyway, and that I still really, really suck at guesstimating the carb count in restaurant food. There really isn't anything I feel I cannot share. I feel much more at ease with this doctor, and although I still get the traditional pre-checkup palpitations, I find that I am harder on myself than he is on me. That wasn't always the case with previous Endos.
On the other hand, I wonder if this unique situation makes things too lax. He is definitely available if I were to need him, but he has verbalized that he trusts I can manage changes on my own. I worry that he puts too much trust in my judgement and my decisions because I am an Endocrinologist as well. The freedom is flattering and quite nice, but I wonder if I'd be better off if he insisted on keeping a closer eye on things himself.
If he was reading this, I'd want him to know that I love the candor and professional courtesy, but to not forget that I am in the patient role during my appointment, not the doctor role. But all things told, I feel incredibly lucky to have such an amazing Endo on my side :)
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